I met her.. in friendster.. well.. i saw her "school" and it was da same kindergarden we were from.. KINDERLAND!! lol.. we bcame friends.. though not tat close.. we chat in msn like sumtimes.. lol.. i had a crush on her on 22nd November 2006.. Elaine's burfday.. i remember she came at 3pm.. LOL.. it was like.. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT.. haha.. not literally.. but like i said.. i had a crush on her =) we had fun tat day.. though Elaine was pissed coz all of us din pay much attention to her on tat day.. (sorry elaine) xD but i had fun with her.. she played with my phone.. showed each other our tongue.. den when elaine's cake came.. she used the fork.. scrapped abit of chocolate.. den put it on my FACE!!!!!!!! LOL.. it was cold!! but i wasnt mad at all.. so i did it to her da same way.. it was as though tat da party was ours.. xDDD after da party.. my mum fetched her to CGMC.. lol.. coz her mum was waiting for her thr.. my mum noes her mum.. and my sis noes her elder sis and her cousin.. LOL.. so we had conversations in da car.. though she was angry at me coz i told my mum hu she was.. XDDDD as da days pass.. we kept in touch evryday.. chatted in msn.. played voice call in msn.. LOL!! den sumtimes we duno wat 2 say.. and she would ask me to talk.. and i'll say.. "talk talk talk.. TOK ur head AH!!!" LOL.. 20 days after Elaine's party.. we were 2gether.. 12th December 2006.. things were smooth for awhile.. den we played MapleStory SEA.. lol.. i forced her..
we were happy awhile.. den sad.. coz she wasn't good at Maple.. so.. u noe la.. my bad temper.. i called her a NOOB!! it was wrong rite? yah.. and sumthing like dis, misled her to quitting maple..( i missed her in maple though.. supposed 2 get married there.. missed her alot there..) <u guys can say that i'm a fucker/looser or watever u like>
we almost broke up.. but didn't.. if i did.. den i was a fool.. breaking up for a game.. nevermind.. so we continued.. i know that she suffered bcoz i still liked a girl for a few months.. i felt bad and oni realise it when she was VERY VERY VERY hurt..  but at the end.. i still chose her.. bcoz i noe tat i'll be happier if i'm with her.. i'm glad that i did choose her.. for the first few months.. January - April.. i would always go to parade to see her.. it's every Friday.. da town bus arrives just on time when my school bell rings.. there were few times when i din finish my work.. so had to stay like 10 mins late.. bcoz of tat.. had to wait for another 25mins for another bus.. luckily.. my friends were understanding people.. (karavin,noel,jasonLEE<not u martin>,vil minn).. maybe they were pissed.. But.. i noe KARAVIN  wasn't.. LOL .. then we would all like keep screaming for da bus.. bcoz karavin can't even tahan to walk to parade.. LOL.. even until now.. even walking to yik foong oso kenot tahan.. ahahahahaha!! NVM.. he's still my buddy though.. but da reason i kept fuming for da bus was.. i can't and dun have da patience.. coz i was really looking forward for seeing HER!!! and of coz.. i lied to my mum.. juz said tat every friday stay back for football.. LOL.. and marching la of coz.. sumtimes scouts oso.. (UH OH.. diediediedie~ wei phun, loo sen.. pls dun kill me.. i juz wanted to see my baybee =) so back to the story.. every friday when i see her.. i juz feel so excited.. its like.. nothing matters to me.. when i see her.. its like.. my mind goes blank.. and all i see and think of is her.. i'm so crazy all over her.. SHE'S THE BEST THING IN MY LIFE.. although we dont really hug each other goodbye.. or don't turn back and run into each other and hug each other(like those Tamil movies.. LOL.. i respect them..) but i feel really excited.. its like.. all da stress and burden i go through da whole week.. it juz dissapears after i see her.. she's like.. the antidote to my poison, she's like the light in my darkness.. she's really supportive for me.. I LOVE HER ALOT!! like i said.. i really look forward to seeing her again even if it was a Saturday or still a Friday.. the reason why i had dis "freedom" to see her was because my mum goes to KL on da weekends(Fri - Sun).. so i juz tell my dad tat i'm staying bak.. i think he noes da reason why i stay bak..
NVM!! U ROCK DAD!! i remember that SHE gave me my birthday present on da day SMI vs SMC taylor's college debate.. lol.. da lil stars,mentos and tiny cute cadbury inside that adorable box.. OMG!! its sooooo CUTE!! thanx sayang!! i din finish eating da choco and candy's.. LOL.. i'm sorry sayang.. its juz tat.. if i eat dem all.. means i'm eating ur heart.. OMG.. tak sanggup wanna eat.. xDD i could see that she REALLY loves me.. and.. that made me feel guilty of liking another girl when we were together at 1st.. i like juz realise that HEYY!! SHE'S DA ONE WHOM I LOVE!! not da girl whom i cheated my gf with.. i felt VERY VERY guilty.. karavin noes that.. xD i wanted to tell HER how i feel after what i've done.. but because she was VERY VERY happy with me.. i just kept it a secret to myself..  after april.. my mum stopped going to kl.. so i  didn't have da chance to see HER anymore.. i missed those days.. when she wore her yellow house shirt.. da bumble bee shirt.. and her fringe tied to da back.. she looked so ADORABLE!! i missed those moments terribly.. so our relationship went on like normal ralationships.. there were UPs and there were DOWNs.. but they were all PRECIOUS MOMENTS to me.. everything we did together as a couple made me love her more and more.. during our 1 year anniversary.. i was very happy.. i was proud to say that.. i had a VERY VERY good time in that 12 months period.. although we argued quite alot.. but she was always thr for me when we argued.. she knows that i'm a very hot tempered and sensitive guy.. and i can hurt her alot.. and yet.. she tolerated with me.. and sometimes.. when she misses me terribly.. she would call me in da middle of da night.. and cry to me on da phone saying that she misses me alot.. SHE'S JUST SO CUTE~ because of 1 thing.. LOVE!! in this whole 1 year period.. i'm like.. da total jerk.. most of u guys must be thinking that.. "man.. dis guy's a fucker.. his girlfriend is soo damn good to him.. and he's just a total jerk screaming and throwing his anger at her".. YES.. i admit i was a jerk.. i admit.. i didn't buy her anything for her birthday and christmas.. sux rite? and she would reload for me.. and i like.. never even top up for her.. even when i had financial problems.. she came up with rm50.. her own money which she saved all by herself.. she juz gave it all to me although she owed people money.. she loved me soo much.. but i didn't giv her anything in return.. she spent everything on me.. and i didn't pay for the money she owed her friends.. not even a single cents.. and sumtimes i would'nt even reply or answer her calls and msgs coz i was playing MAPLESTORY.. after our 12th month anniversary.. 12th December 2007.. a week later.. we went to Lost World of Tambun.. HAD TONS OF FUN THERE!!! i piggy back HER in da water.. HAHAHA!! i was sked of every ride!! man i dun hav balls.. although it might upsetted her coz she couldn't go on every ride.. but she was UNDERSTANDING!! she was so cute when she was swimming.. there were several times when she swam to da deep end.. so i had 2 go thr and save her(although i can't really swim, stopped swimming lessons when i was std 2).. b4 she goes deeper.. LOL.. we had one of da FINEST MOMENTS together.. things were easy, and happy for me.. until after our 13th month anniversary.. there was someone else who came to her life.. someone who was about to change everything.. someone who was to make my FAIRYTALE just explode into flames.. this guy.. "A".. was working for her mum.. and he fetches my gf from school.. without me knowing.. until a few weeks.. and he keeps buying her stuffs for her and everything she wanted.. den later on.. my gf told me bout him.. i din mind it at 1st coz i juz tot that he was juz a family friend.. and so i continued my stupid,irresponsible,self hearted boyfriend attitude.. all i ever cared was to play MAPLE.. all i ever care was to level up and be lvl 100++ so that i can like show ppl that i'm a big shot.. it really hurt my gf.. bcoz.. i never gave her much attention.. i mean.. NEVER gave her attention.. until like "A" payed for her CNY clothes which cost rm200++ bought her lots of things.. i guess that all of "A"'s shopping spree for her made her develop feelings for him.. she did lie to me sumtimes bout him and places she went to.. but.. i can't blame her.. our relationship were very unstable till now.. i havent realise all the mistakes which i have done and caused.. i just thought that "HEY!! i have a caring gf" and i only cared for myself.. and i only realise and regretted recently.. Well.. i know that they did stuffs which she doesn't wan me to know .. and.. i knew that.. by the time i regretted what i had done.. it was all too late.. her feelings for him grew fonder.. she doesnt have to tell me.. but i could feel it.. i could feel that we werent that crazy for each other like last time.. i seriously regretted alot.. we almost broke up a few times.. alot of people told me to break up.. but i just can't.. I LOVE HER!! it was only now that i realise that.. i never appreciate the people around me.. the person whom might be my wife in the future.. the most important person besides my family.. my girlfriend.. i dun care what people say.. or what she and "A" had done.. i oni juz wan her back.. she's everything to ME!!!! I LOVE HER SO TERRIBLY MUCH!! i noe that afta what i did to her.. her feelings for me had faded away.. i know that even if we stayed.. we can't be as happy as last time.. but anything is possible.. I WOULD GIVE MY LIFE IF I HAD TO!! i juz wanted everything to be like last time.. i really wanted her to know that she will suffer if she was to be with "A".. all "A" wanted is to play her feelings he's in his 20's so obviously a guy that age finding secondary school girls are obviously playing with them coz he can't cheat girls his age coz they're smarter den him.. i really love HER so much.. i just cant stop crying for days.. i was a fool dis 15th months.. i was an irresponsible boyfriend.. but all i wanted now is HER!! I WANT HER ONLY!! i just wanted her to come back to me.. I Love You Darling <3 please come back to me? i finally know how u feel all dis months.. please forgive me baby.. please come back to me.. i'm not angry if u and "A" did anything.. i just want you to know that i really love you.. i missed the way we were last time.. please give me chance? please forget bout "A" and return to me.. i can't live without you.. it hurts so much.. its hurts so much that i feel like i've been stabbed by a knife.. i miss you so badly..



I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! I'm Sorry of being a jerk!! would you give me a chance? please? ='((




Love,

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